Monday, October 29, 2007

חופש האמונה

הוא תמים
רוצה להאמין
אבל הוא לא יכול
רק נאבק בכל
וכך טובע
לא מבין דבר
רוצה לחזור
לחזור לשעבר

והוא חופשי
חופשי לדעת כל
חופשי לדעת להאמין
והוא חופשי
וזה כל מה שהוא רוצה
כל מה שהוא רוצה

ומעליו פרוסים שמיים כחולים
והוא בוהה אך לא מרגיש דבר
הוא חזק כי הוא נלחם בכל
ומהמלחמה הזו הוא כה חלש
כה מנותק, לא חי במציאות

כבר לא תמים יותר, רוצה לחיות זאת שוב
והוא לבד, לבד מול העולם
כמוהם לא יהיה עוד לעולם
עוד לעולם

והוא חופשי
חופשי לדעת כל
חופשי לדעת להאמין
והוא חופשי
וזה כל מה שהוא רוצה
כל מה שהוא רוצה

ימי הזוהר כבר חלפו עברו
עכשיו בירידה
הכל בגלל, בגלל אותה טעות
טעות, לא אשמתך
ומאז, מאז אותה טעות
כולם כבר נגדך, כולם כבר נגדך

Stop!

והוא חופשי
חופשי לדעת כל
חופשי לדעת להאמין
והוא חופשי
וזה כל מה שהוא רוצה
כל מה שהוא רצה
כל מה שהוא ירצה


והוא חופשי, והוא חופשי

והוא חופשי
חופשי לדעת כל
חופשי לדעת להאמין
והוא חופשי
וזה כל מה שהוא רוצה
כל מה שהוא רוצה

Sunday, October 28, 2007

That morning

- I know you're mad. You have all the reasons in the world. It's been months since my last post. Hope you'll all forgive me. Anyhow, those months weren't fruitless! I actually wrote a few new songs! So there you have it, a song a day, until they're all here.

I woke up
This morning
Feeling
Something is not the same

I smiled
So hopeful
knowing things are gonna change

Up there, In haven
An angel smiled upon the earth,
The open green meadow
No longer ruled by sticks and stones

And I know it's been a long night
I know that we need someone by our side
And we feel it's been a long time
We feel we need some good time

Up there, In haven
An angel smiled upon the earth,
The open green meadow
No longer ruled by sticks and stones

And you know you need somewhere to go
To go to feel inspired again
You don't always reap what you sow,
There's always a risk life's game

Up there, In haven
An angel smiled upon the earth,
The open green meadow
No longer ruled by sticks and stones

- You may worship me later. Or you may worship me now. Your choice. ;)

Friday, June 22, 2007

כל החיים

הם אמרו לי תראה,
החיים לא פשוטים
זה לא רק שחור-לבן
ויש עוד גוונים

הם אמרו לי תבין
אתה רק אחד
לאחד אין סיכוי
לשנות את העולם
העולם זה כולם
כולם לא משתנים
ובודדים לא יכולים
לשנות את כל החיים
את כל החיים את כל החיים.

אתה משהו פשוט, זמני
לא מהותי
ואיש לא יזכור
לא ישתנה, כי אנשים לא משתנים
נשארים קבועים
ובודדים לא יכולים
לשנות את כל החיים
את כל החיים את כל החיים

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

New month - almost like a new life

So here we go, a new month has begone. With it, I feel like a whole new life has started for me.
For start, me and Marina... Well... We broke-up. But for some reason, I'm still happy. Life just seems right no matter what lately.
My final exams started. Next week it's the history test. Wish me luck. :)

And now for what (or really - who) really got me to write this post (yeah, I'm lazy, take it or leave it) - Or. Who is she? Well, for starts, she is a cousin of a very good friend of mine. And now a very good friend of mine too. But... There is something more then that. We both know that. We just don't know what it is...

We started talk 6 days ago, but it's feels like we know each other forever. And... I don't know. It's just too confusing, we slowly try to figure out this thing.
Whatever it is, it's nice. I like it. And I think she is too.

So here is for new beginnings!
Enim Nuvos Decretum!

Yours,
Le Generosus.

Saturday, May 26, 2007

An urge to write


I feel this urge to write here. Don't know why, it's probably a part of the turning my life took lately. You know this feeling you sometimes have, that everything is just good? Some divine bliss that means that everything is just right, happiness that comes from within you and just washes you with warm goodness. I can really feel now, flowing in my entire body, and you might notice that as you read what I write you can feel it too. It's contagious, addictive, and just good. I hope everyone could feel life like this, make it more vivid and brighter, become aware that the stronger you feel this, the happier you get, and the happier you get the stronger this feeling gets. With every breath you take, with every word you read.
Absolute divine bliss. Want it, and it's yours.


Enim Nuvos Decretum!
Yours,
Le Generosus.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Hypnosis - Article 001

No it's time to really start learning hypnosis!
As I promised, today we will learn the progressive relaxation induction. Now, there are many ways to do this, because all you basically do is slowly relax the subject to trance.
Here is a basic script for muscle relaxation:
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Now, release the weight of your body into the support of the floor/bed.

Notice how your back makes contact with the support of the floor/bed.

Relax the back of your legs....the back of your hips....your lower back, middle back, and upper back. Feel the weight and relaxation of the back of your body sinking through the floor/bed.

Relax the back of your shoulders / the back of your arms / the back of your neck / and the back of your head. Wiggle and make any adjustments needed to relax the back of your body into the ground more fully. Melt into the support of the floor/bed completely.

Now, notice the weight of your body. Notice the weight of your legs, as they rest on the floor. Let your legs be heavy. Let your thighs, feet and toes relax. Release, relax, let go of them completely. Let your legs drift and float and now forget about them.

Notice the weight of your hips and pelvis, as they rest on the floor/bed. Let the weight of your pelvis sink into the floor/bed.

Notice the weight of your rib cage. Let the back ribs melt into the floor/bed.

Feel your abdomen expand with each inhalation. As you exhale, let the belly fully contract. Like a giant balloon inflating and completely deflating. Relaxing deeper with each deep breath.

Notice the weight of your shoulders and arms, as they rest on the floor/bed. Let your arms be so heavy that they sink through the floor/bed. Then release them completely. Let go. Let them drift and float away and then forget about them.

Notice the weight of your head, as it rests on the floor/bed. Let the head be heavy. Feel your neck and throat release and relax.

Relax the muscles of your face / relax your eyes and eyelids / your cheeks melt into relaxation / release, relax, let go of your jaw / your forehead and eyebrows smooth and relaxed / feel your scalp melt into relaxation. Your whole head and face totally relaxed, released.

Become aware of your breathing. Notice each inhalation relaxing the front of your body, and each exhalation relaxing the whole back of your body. Breathing slow, deep and then let it go.

Breathing the body deeper and deeper into relaxation as you drift and float in peace.
(Credit to: americanchronicle
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As you can see, this is rather simple. What you do is basically suggest the subject to relax.
This is the main pro of this induction. Nothing to memorize at all. Another one is that it's just oh so relaxing. ;)
However, there are several cons. For starts, it usually take a lot of time (15-45 minutes). Second, for the several first times (about 3) it only gets them to a light trance, and it will probably take you at least 5 sessions to get them to a deep state. Third, and that is the most important one, is that the subject can simply fall asleep during the induction and that's not helpful.
And then, then came Dave Elman. But that's another story. ;)

Saturday, May 19, 2007

יושב כאן

אני כאן
יושב מחכה לה
לבד... לבד...

אבל היא שם
ולא איכפת לה
בכלל... בכלל...

אני צועק
והיא לא שומעת
אני מועד כמעט נופל
לבד...

וכשהיא בוכה
אני שוב נמצא שם
וכשהיא נופלת
אני שוב מרים
אותה...

אני צועק
והיא לא שומעת
אני מועד כמעט נופל
לבד...

וכשהיא בוכה
אני שוב נמצא שם
וכשהיא נופלת
אני שוב מרים
אותה...

אני עוד כאן
יושב וכותב לה
לבד... לבד...

Monday, May 14, 2007

Hypnosis - Pre-lesson

Hypnosis is one of the most powerful tools known to man. It is an altered state of mind in which the critical factor of the mind is usually bypassed and one is more open to suggestions. In this series of articles I will try to help you understand your mind better, influence people better and yes, being able to apply hypnosis.
Use of hypnosis dates as far as back in ancient Egypt, in which they took their sick to the "Sleep Temples" to be cured. Hypnotic-like inductions were used to place the individual in a sleep-like state, although it is now accepted that hypnosis is different from sleep.
General effects of hypnosis are, among else, are higher suggestibility and more focused attention. So, that means you can bypass the critical factor of the mind and your suggestions will become much more powerful.
In the next (first) lesson/article I will teach you how to induce hypnosis in a method called "Progressive Relaxation" and will point out it's pros and cons, plus a bit about what happens in it.

Your's truly,
Le Generosus.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Pictures

Here are some pictures Marina took. Hope you'll like them!


(Click to enlarge)



Yours truly,

Le Generosus.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Marina


Hi all,
I've decided to now write a post about one of the most valuable people in my life - Marina.
I know Marina since I moved to my new school, and about a month ago we became a couple. We just sat there, hugging, and just... kissed, like in all of those over-dramatic movies.
We are very close, and talk about everything. And... there is nothing much more to say really. She's amazing, and I am so lucky to be with her.
I'm sorry this post is very short, but like I said, I have trouble expressing myself especially trough blog-posts.

Yours truly,
Le Generosus

Saturday, May 5, 2007

So... Me

Hey everyone. I know I haven't posted anything new for quite some time, but I didn't wrote any new songs lately. So, I decided to turn this blog into a normal personal blog, where I can post both my songs and my thoughts.
So there you have it, a normal post in a perfectly normal blog - I just hope it will continue posting. I had about nine blog so far, and none of them went well. I stopped posting very quickly. Got bored. I hope this won't happen with this blog, it's really important to me.
And that's it for now, I'll post again when I have anything important to say or if I'll write a new song.

Yours truly,
Le Generosus (former Le Curator).

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

השמש כבר נושקת לגלים

השמש כבר נושקת לגלים
הגיעה השקיעה
פשוט שוכב על החולות
שומע את צחוקה

אלה ימים שכבר עברו
עכשיו אתה לבד
פשוט צועק את שמה
יותר כמו זעקות של פחד
אבל היא לא עונה...

אני פשוט קורא למרחקים
אני מתחנן לרקיעים
אני מביט בכוכבים
אני מסתכל על הזרמים
הם כיווני החיים
הם כל כך לא ברורים
והם אותנו גוררים
לכיוונים כה מוזרים

אני שם
מסתכל על השבילים
אני מביט בלי לראות
מתחנן בלי להבין
אני קורא אל הרוחות
רוצה להאמין

קרן שמש אחרונה
החושך כבר אופף
זעקה לחשכה
ואתה שוב מתעורר
צורח...

אני שם
מסתכל על השבילים
אני מביט בלי לראות
מתחנן בלי להבין
אני קורא אל הרוחות
רוצה להאמין

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

4 walls

Real Chess by nosejj
4 קירות של לבנים
עם מטורף זועק בפנים
הוא צועק לאלוהים
שכולם סביבו מתים

לא, הוא לא ענה לך
נשארת לבד
האנשים סביבך
כולם מכוסים בד

עוד כמה ימים
נשארו לחיים?
תשאלו ת'מטורף
הוא סופר את הימים

הוא קורא עכשיו
לכל אותם שפויים
לראות כל הדברים
שמסביבם קורים

ואיפה אלוהים
מיילל לכוכבים
ובינות כל העצים
יש ליל של סכינים

וילדים קטנים
עדיין לא מבינים
אבל כבר הם משחקים
בחרבות וסכינים

המלך אמר לצאת למלחמה
זה לא משנה שבכלל אין בשביל מה
המלך אמר אז תהיה מהומה
זה בסדר שעוד אמא תישאר שכולה

4 קירות של לבנים
והמטורף זועק בפנים
הוא צועק לאלוהים
שכולם סביבו מתים

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Opium



Just sit alone
And clear your mind
Think of when
Just forget that she is gone

This simple thing
Not letting go
Deforms your life
And seals you soul

There's something else
Behind the scenes
It is something that by humans
Cannot be seen

God's true love
Escapes our eyes
Fate dealt the cards
And we have lost

There's something else
Behind the scenes
It is something that by humans
Cannot be seen

Graveyards of fear
And fields of doom
Shuts us in
And the skies gloom

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Just the flames

- My first song in Hebrew. Hope you'll like it.

אלה רק הלהבות, הלהבות ששורפות אותי מבפנים
אלה רק החיים, החיים שלא מרחמים
אלה רק השדים, שרודפים אותי לשיגעון
אלה רק הזיכרונות, שמשאירים אותי בעיוורון

לא, לא אל תברחי
אני, צריך אותך איתי
כי גם ביחד זה לבד כשאת לא כאן
הבנתי את זה כבר מזמן...

ואני כאן, מחכה
כשעוד זיכרון אחד, עולה
עכשיו את יודעת, את מה שהיה
אבל לא ניתן להשיב, את שנעשה

לא, לא אל תברחי
אני, צריך אותך איתי
כי גם ביחד זה לבד כשאת לא כאן
הבנתי את זה כבר מזמן...

הבנתי את זה מזמן...

אומרים שלברוח, זה לא פיתרון
אבל אותם אנשים, הם בשיכרון
כי החיים אף פעם, לא מוותרים
החזקים חיים, החלשים מתים

אז אולי עדיף לברוח
אולי עדיף לשכוח...

לא, לא אל תברחי
אני, צריך אותך איתי
כי גם ביחד זה לבד כשאת לא כאן
הבנתי את זה כבר מזמן...

אלה רק הלהבות...

Friday, March 23, 2007

I feel fruitful

- Yet another song, that I started writing yesterday and finished today. Enjoy!


I see her face
so calm and pure
with mightiness and grace
perfection blurs

Messiah's madness
inspires me
with freedom and bravery
he fills his prophecy

Life isn't just right and wrong
you can't always know where you belong
you must keep it together and be strong
because this journey can be long

Messiah's madness
inspires me
with freedom and bravery
he fills his prophecy

But one must go on
forever, and ever, and ever...

Messiah's madness
inspires me
with freedom and bravery
he fills his prophecy

Go on...

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Dark goth song

- My first really darkly and goth-like song!
Grim reaper striding
in this hall of doom
and dead people screaming
as he crosses the room

One woman standing
with pride and might
face the reaper
as he stride

And now
as they come face to face
the woman crumbles
the woman faints

Now she's gone
now she's dead
and he has walked away.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Claiming my blog

I'm going to claim my blog at technorati.com, so this post is to put a special link so they will know it's really mine.

Technorati Profile

That's it!

Sunday, March 18, 2007

A new song

- Yes! Another one!

On this day
I had proven you
on this day
that I have seen your face

On this day
I have seen the truth
on this day
I have known hope

Now I tell you
about fear and betrayal
now I say
that this day has now gone

Now I scream
about mayhem
Now I shout
about chaos itself

- Yeah, it sucks, I know. I just had this music playing in my head so I wrote something that fits.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

My hypothesis of reality

I've started working on my hypothesis on how people grasp reality. It is a part of my life-time goals of understanding the human mind, and creating an artificial being.
It goes as follows:
We do not live inside the reality. We live in a model of reality that exists in our mind and is built by our senses and perceptions. When something is "caught" in one of the senses the mind compares the input to the model and analyzes the input by it. What we hear, see, feel and think are actually an analysis of this input from our surroundings by this model. The model is not static and changes with time, especially when we learn or comprehend something new. Fundamental elements of the model (e.g. water runs from high places to lower ones) changes only rarely normally, and requires a source that is considered reliable enough by the model itself in-order to change. The less fundamental the element, the easier it is to change it, annex it, or remove it from the model and vise-versa. The model is frequently integral in the aspect of it rarely including contradictions and/or self contradictions and these mostly happen while the model is undergoing any sort of a big change (e.g. religious conversion). There is a constant effort to minimize and eliminate this contradictions as soon as possible as the mental health of the person at this situation is usually fast declining and the symptoms are often deep confusion, depression and frustration. The more this contradictions are fundamentals and exists more time they increase the odds of seeking external aid and guidance. This guidance often causes even much more extreme changes and results in a much more stable model (or seldom a mental breakdown) that settles the contradictions. After the implantation of such a change the new improved model is much more fixed in the elements caused the initial contradiction, presumably to prevent repetition of this events. In order for new elements to be added to the model, they are compared to the existing model for analysis. If there is a need to change or decline existing elements to accept the new ones a full scale analysis of possible outcomes of accepting and rejecting the change is being carried out, and the decision will be carried to support elements that fits better in the general model. All in all, new elements are usually accepted only when they settle with the existing general model and mostly explain it better and in a more extensive way.

So this is it so far...
It still needs much more work, and will be constantly improve. Tell me what you think about it!

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

A new song!

- Wrote a new song yesterday! Tell me what you think.

Now I thought
that this was something real
that this was real
this was...

And I knew
that nothing last forever
nothing last forever
nothing, ever!

This day has cast a shadow
upon my dreams
this is my way of screaming
there is nothing real

Reality's illusion plays tricks
on me
life have no escape from
there's no red pill

And now I see you trying telling me
this things I thought you'd never speak
those walls of innocence braking
and dark in leaks

- It's a bit emo, but who cares.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

"Open your mind to us"

A few days ago I was just wandering around the net and I came across a company called "Emotiv". It claims to uncover something to help us use computers in a way shown only in Si-Fi until now - with our minds. "Project Epoc", as they call it, is a highly advanced headset that uses a set of sensors to tune into electric signals naturally produced by the brain to detect player thoughts, feelings and expression. Sounds unreal, huh?
Well, the people at crunchgear have tested it, and were amazed by the results. This thing is 100% real, and by the end of 2008 it will completely change the way we interact with computer.
Emotiv's main aim now is the computer games market, and plans to revolutionise the way we play in every aspect. Imagine RPG games were telekinetic powers can really be controlled with your mind, strategy games that you plan strategies in easily by thinking about them and racing games that blurs the screen as you get exited!
The future is close and I am definitely looking forward to it. The information is spraded all across the net and rumers are flying everywhere - if you dig up anything new I'll be glad hearing about it!

For our new world!
Enim Le Nuvos Decretum!

Le Curator.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Last song

- This is going to be the last song for the time being. From here I will publish mostly my thoughts and if I'll write/find other song, you'll be the first to know.


"Die" I have never screamed, sacred beyond
any desperation, your demons have their loneliness:
in your most decimated streets are things which threatens me,
or which I cannot witness for their existence


your real soul will not forgive me
though I have stop myself from flight,
you always took me hand by hand to guide me through
(trying mortally, inwards) God's awaken word

or if your eyes will die, I and
my revenge will change inward, onward,
as when the dream of this change cast
the reality away everywhere from here;

nothing which we are to carry on under this sky
the lesson of your bare lie: whose death
smiles upon me with the new birth it gave,
blind savior and phantom's vision.

(I will not back-down from were I stand
and bow; something in me shouts
about your crimes and sins)
heart, not even the hate, has such painful soul

Friday, March 9, 2007

Officially moving out!

Finally I posted on my old blog that I'm moving here permanently!
That all, just wanted to let you know...

That's that:
http://israblog.nana.co.il/blogread.asp?blog=179977&blogcode=5994935

A God that is Yours

-A song of mine that is being composed by a friend.


Slender beams of moonlight enter
this darkened church as I kneel,
always fearful, always hopeful,
frozen here,
waiting.

Robed forms wrought in panes of glass loom as
dust dances in the air,
forming an image in my mind,
penetrating my darkened soul.

Pain on a child's face.

I raise my head, now defying
this uncaring salvation.

Thursday, March 8, 2007

Shallow Trust

- kind of an old song of mine.

I take my smiles and all the pain hurts streets;
I ask my words and all is lost again.
(I know I see you up inside my trust.)

The kids go living out in real and empty,
and false sin steps in:
I stop my preys and all the life lies angel.

I conquered that you killed me into god
and pray me lonely, made me quite divine.
(I know I see you up inside my trust.)

Soul runs from the gem, road's salvations flee:
pass the pain-lake and messiah's cause:
I stop my preys and all the life lies angel.

I promised you'd answer the way you say,
but I hope greatness and I judge your destiny.
(I know I see you up inside my trust.)

I should have hated the knowing instead;
At least when foreigner turns them direct back again.
I stop my preys and all the life lies angel.

(I know I see you up inside my trust.)

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Lying on the calm black water

-Another song of mine. From some time ago...


A little wild ray of light inside the cool flowers of ink;
pours burning love beautiful as snow;
lies in wait! Star which is melting away!

In the wine of daylight by the wave.
- its coolness on my feet, the beads of their loves.
In a slumbering alder hemmed in by chimaeras.
- from violet forests: where the stars are sleeping.

Lying in her long veils, on the calm black water
embroidered with black moss her great veils rising
mount in my soul but endless;

I cared nothing for all, hurled of the hulks hurricane,
of sour apples pale-eyed realize in antique dramas
the scented twilight, devoured by vermin

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

A new song that I wrote

- comments will be appreciated. I wrote it today.

This morning I woke up believing
that I can fix the world that I know
save all that is deemed to be broken
and fight all my fears on my own

I wanted the world to see me
to tell me the show must go on
imagine the pain I was feeling
when I found out that I am alone

So I guess I'll just go back to dreaming
that I can fix this world that I know
save all that is deemed to be broken
and fight all my fears on my own

Monday, March 5, 2007

Our mission



We were all raised to believe our world is amazing. We think it can be.

Our world, as it is today, is a place full of anger and hate. Destruction is all around us.

Do you dream of that world as a better place? Without countless deaths every day that are caused for no reason at all? Just, better lives for each and every one of us?

We do.

We dream of green, beautiful, never-ending fields instead of the horrible war-regions.

We dream of crystal clear rivers instead of the blood-baths.

We dream of vast forests and lush meadow.

And that is what we are here to do, make this dream come true.

Will you help us achieve that?